no regrets..

You know love, till date one thing that I haven’t been able to understand is the thing why people regret. See tris, once in a while each n every one of us regret a part of past, be it a situation, a choice or even a person. But we regret nevertheless and one thing that I don’t comprehend in all this is as to why… Why do we end up regretting something that in a part has made us n our history? See the basic fact is that we do everything n anything only when we feel it’s our ‘right’. So how come we end up regretting something that once had justified our sense of right n wrong. How come our very own right turns around so much that the only thing that’s left with us is plain regret? And you know the thing about regret is that it makes everything that touches it wrong, so utterly wrong that even thinnest ray of right isn’t visible through it… We uselessly ponder upon things that have passed by, been lived through and we end up judging every single second of it. And not surprisingly more times than not, we don’t come out content with our own analysis… I always feel that life has a very weird way of unfolding. See we never like what it offers us at any particular junction, still we make do n move on with the best of our capabilities n acceptance and with time we resent the very same choices n decisions that were taken by us then. Somehow be it moving on or staying stuck at some or other phase of our lives, we aren’t really happy with either choice. Anyway we go on n one coming day we regret making that particular choice. But if we look at this mess from another angle, it might be that we aren’t regretting the thing chosen but instead are feeling bad about the one not chosen. Still all I hope at this instant is that I somehow feel anything but regret that one day when I stop n look back on my life… In fact it’s my wish n prayer for everyone who is living his/her life in the best possible way at this particular moment… that they don’t bump into regret while travelling the bumpy lanes of their past… Ahem…

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timing milieu..

No one can go back n start all over again afresh, but anyone can start from now n make a new ending… At times I feel this really should be the only concern to each one of us… but contrary to this, none ever think of starting afresh whenever anyone of us have a setback… all we can concentrate on at the junction is why the bloody hell now, how come with me, what went wrong and most promptly n prominently my fucking luck. Quite ironically it’s almost the same course for everyone despite the disparities in their situations… Come to think of it how more easier life could have been if we had a tendency to stop only to think of newer ways so as to move ahead than to curse n dug out the reasons as to why we stopped… but then maybe this is what exactly we are all about, humans n their life. Though even this isn’t bad deal if one thinks about it hard, for at times one need to know the past as well, for there too lays a part of us that is never coming back. But yes always sticking by one’s past n almost camping there is not the real deal. For no matter whether we do it willingly or unwillingly we move on, just coz we have to n always will… And despite us not wanting or needing them, newer paths n journeys keep adding themselves to our ultimate journey of finding our own selves… and frankly it’s better for us to look forward into the dreams of our future to reach the end eventually, though in process also not forgetting to turn back once in a while n peer into the shadows of our past as well, ever… for our being is like a clock, where movement is only possible with time… our past being the seconds' hand moving the present of minute hand which always has n will move our future in hours' hand. For its past of man, that makes him the way he is at present n only present him has the power to sculpt the future… And eventually all one ever need is do, in order reach wherever (s)he ever wanted n needed to, is to have legs steadily moving in present with eyes always looking forward into the future with past being carried in the heart n mind always…

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forgiving, forgetting..

You know tris people feel that it’s not easy to forgive n forget… But they don’t realize just how wrong they are, for this is not what’s difficult… difficult is keeping that throbbing of hurt or fire of revenge or clouds of resentment alive in us… And you know what tris, all this harms the people holding them much more than to the person for whom they actually are… these are like burning coals or sharp shards of glass that one is holding to throw at someone they want to avenge against. And it’s not difficult to realize that by the time one really throws them, they have already burnt or slashed one’s very own hands… and despite avenging ourselves, we haven’t been able to subdue our pain instead we have actually catapulted it n in process have added few more scars as well… See tris am not saying that one should stop feeling hurt or betrayed, for then all we will be is cold-blooded stone or highest of saints. And none is really a way to live, really live… You know feel everything, feel the pain when it’s there, the hurt when it happens or the anger when it ignites, but never hold unto them… For like everything else they too need to flow ahead in the river of our lives. And even holding unto sometime is not a bad deal, for at the core it’s about ones pride n at times all one have is his/her pride. At times it is the only thing that’s keeping one alive, standing n fighting… But yes one should use it as a weapon and not become one in its hands. It’s good to have its support to lean on, but not to do by it… And you know what, even forgiving n forgetting will hurt n pain you a little for in letting go of all that hurt, anger, resentment we are letting go of a part of our own life… but keeping them afresh in ourselves hurts much much more n always will… It’s far better to have a little of it for while than to have it forever, always right there. Though it’s not as easy as it’s said to be, forgiving n forgetting is still not possible, all one needs to know n more importantly believe that I was strong enough to take that hurt, have been stronger to live with it but am strongest enough to let go of it all n always will be no matter what, where, why, when or how…

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taking the fall..

In life, for once do fall in love… be it with an idea, a hope, a choice, an ambition, a wish, a thing, a person or even a feeling… but do fall, for more than anything that would be the reason for waking up every single day with a smile… And that reason is more precious than anything one will be accumulate over the course of one’s life… You know tris having a new smile each day as ours is a blessing beyond words… And even greater is being the reason behind this blessing. You know smile is among few of nature’s treasure that is precious in any currency… One which makes everyone feel worthy of everything n anything. Smile has a really potent power… You know just a few days back, read this joke that, it not the girl turning back that drives the boy crazy, instead it when she turns back n 'smile' that the madness begins…J Well that’s the power of smile. J J J And you know one can’t even imagine the range it has; at one turn it can be hearty, at other wary, it can be watery or it can be sarcastic as well… It’s kind of that smile has moods of its own. And you know smile is that one thing, which we can give even to our enemy without backing out or appearing weak. And what more in addition to this marvelous gift, falling in love always leave one feeling cherished, beautiful n above anything worthy… One thing that all of us question all our lives, being in love gives us that evasive answer as well, that ‘yes’ we are worthy… worthy of this person, answer, idea or just about anything, but yes worthy we are. And that my love is way beyond anything any day. Oh! tris how I wish each one of us is able to have this insight to and feel this magic of love among many other… that we have the power to weave and do so for sure when given a chance with true heart-clear mind-selfless soul… And what more one should play this gamble in one’s life n take the fall, if only once, for without any doubts whatsoever it will always be worth every damn bit of it, today, tomorrow, forever…

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