forgiving, forgetting..

You know tris people feel that it’s not easy to forgive n forget… But they don’t realize just how wrong they are, for this is not what’s difficult… difficult is keeping that throbbing of hurt or fire of revenge or clouds of resentment alive in us… And you know what tris, all this harms the people holding them much more than to the person for whom they actually are… these are like burning coals or sharp shards of glass that one is holding to throw at someone they want to avenge against. And it’s not difficult to realize that by the time one really throws them, they have already burnt or slashed one’s very own hands… and despite avenging ourselves, we haven’t been able to subdue our pain instead we have actually catapulted it n in process have added few more scars as well… See tris am not saying that one should stop feeling hurt or betrayed, for then all we will be is cold-blooded stone or highest of saints. And none is really a way to live, really live… You know feel everything, feel the pain when it’s there, the hurt when it happens or the anger when it ignites, but never hold unto them… For like everything else they too need to flow ahead in the river of our lives. And even holding unto sometime is not a bad deal, for at the core it’s about ones pride n at times all one have is his/her pride. At times it is the only thing that’s keeping one alive, standing n fighting… But yes one should use it as a weapon and not become one in its hands. It’s good to have its support to lean on, but not to do by it… And you know what, even forgiving n forgetting will hurt n pain you a little for in letting go of all that hurt, anger, resentment we are letting go of a part of our own life… but keeping them afresh in ourselves hurts much much more n always will… It’s far better to have a little of it for while than to have it forever, always right there. Though it’s not as easy as it’s said to be, forgiving n forgetting is still not possible, all one needs to know n more importantly believe that I was strong enough to take that hurt, have been stronger to live with it but am strongest enough to let go of it all n always will be no matter what, where, why, when or how…

-neh..